Skins series 6!!!

 

OH. MY. GOD

Curhat Sama Allah Tentang Dia :)

Ya Allah, aku ngga tau apa aku masih sayang atau ngga sama dia? Yang jelas, aku kangen sama dia. Aku cuma berharap, dia bisa memaafkan kesalahanku yang dulu, dan aku juga akan mencoba memaafkan kesalahan dia yang dulu. Aku mau menatap masa depan tanpa dibayang-bayangi oleh masa lalu.

Aku ngga minta banyak, Ya Allah. Aku cuma mau berteman lagi sama dia. Aku ngga mau jadi orang asing bagi dia, seperti sekarang ini. Karena jujur aja, dia adalah salah satu orang yang telah mengubah hidupku. Dari dia, aku belajar untuk mencintai kekurangan orang lain. Dari dia, aku belajar untuk mengasihi. Dari dia, aku belajar untuk mengalah, walaupun itu sakit untukku. Dari dia, aku belajar dewasa. Dan namanya tak pernah luput kusebut di dalam doa-doaku di setiap shalat, walaupun dia sering membuat aku kecewa.

Ya Allah, ampunilah dosa-dosanya, tuntunlah ia ke jalan-MU yang lurus agar dia dapat menjadi pemuda yang sholeh dan tidak terjerumus ke jalan yang sesat. Lindungi dan kasihilah dia, Ya Allah. Karena sekarang aku sudah tidak bisa melindungi dan mengasihinya lagi..

Kabulkanlah doaku ini, Ya Allah. Aamiin Ya Robbal Alamin.

Ini buat lo, 200511-101011

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Soundtrack for this post: "Rindu" by Agnes Monica

SORRY :(

Sorry for the lack of posting. I know I'm such a bad blogger 

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My 3rd Award :D

Yeyeyeyeyeay! dapet award lagi! hehehe, big thanks to Oepieck yang udah ngasih award ini ke saya, I really appreciate it :)

Saya bingung mau kasih award ini ke siapa? --" Hmm, yasudah, saya kasih award ini buat siapa saja yang udah visit blog saya deh :)

My 2nd Award :)

Sudah lama ga update blog, eh sekalinya update langsung dapet 2 award, hehe. Salah satunya dari nonasan :)
Here is the award..

Banyak ya? :D Oh iya, syaratnya kalo dapet award ini, saya harus oper ke 10 blogger lain. Hmm, ok, let's do that..

1. Oepieck 

2. Pungky

3. Ruth

4. Kintan

5. Jeng Blogii

6. Queen Elizabeth

7. Miranti

8. Gita

9. Rara

10. Mutia

Fiuhhh, akhirnya selesai juga. Thanks ya nonasan :)

Soundtrack For Tonight :''''''''

 

This is 'Broken Arrow' by Pixie Lott

Enjoy!

*Oh, and sorry for the lack of posting-,-

My FIRST Award EVER!

AAAAAA~ senangnya saya dapat award. And FYI, this is my first award ever. Award ini saya dapat dari Patricia. Terima kasih ya, I really really appreciate it. Saya jadi tambah semangat buat nge-blog, hehehe.

Oh iya, katanya kalo award berantai ini ada aturan-ataurannya ya? Well, ayo kita mainkan :)

Wajib kirim ke 7 teman blogger termasuk orang yang ngasih award ini

Ok :)

1. Patricia

2. Queen Elizabeth

3. Ayie

4. Ghanis

5. Jessica Grace

6. Pradina Syahwali

7. Monika Meitasari

Ceritakan 7 tentang kamu

Wah, susah mendefinisikan diri saya, hehe. But I'll try..

• I'm different from the other girls
• Saya suka berimajinasi
• I LOVE HARRY POTTER
• Saya tidak pernah peduli dengan apa yang orang2 bicarakan di 'belakang' tentang saya :)
• Saya mempunyai pola pemikiran yang berbeda dari anak-anak seumuran saya yang lainnya
• Taylor Swift adalah penyanyi favorit saya
• and last, I love being ME <3

Berterimakasih kepada yang ngasih award ini
Thanks to Patricia yang sudah memberikan award ini untuk saya. Sekali lagi, this is my first award ever! Terima kasih banyak ya, salam kenal :)

Yang udah punya ambil lagi ya
This is my first award, jadi sudah pasti saya ambil, wekekek

Mengerjakan tugas ini dengan ikhlas
Tentu saja :)

Fiuhh~ akhirnya selesai juga ngerjainnya. Oh iya, buat yang sudah saya kasih award, salam kenal ya :)

These lyrics are for YOU

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 "I wanna get back to the old days, when the phone would ring and I knew it was you.."

"When you left I lost a part of me.."

"Everything means nothing if I ain't got you.."

"I keep on fallin' in and out of love with you.."

"Please be careful with my heart, you can take it, just don't break it.."

"In a dream, you appear, for awhile, you were here so I keep sleeping just to keep you with me.."

 "Unbreak my heart, say you'll love me again.."

"I wanna be with you, if only for a night, to be the one whose in your arms who holds you tight.."

" Everytime I see you in my dreams, I see your face, it's haunting me, I guess I need you baby.."

"Say that you wanna be with me too, cause I'm gonna stay trough it all so jump then fall into me.."

Ini semua lirik-lirik lagu yang aku ambil buat ngungkapin semuanya ke kamu. 

I hope you appreciate it :')

HARRY POTTER AND DEATHLY HALLOWS PART II TRAILER!

 

I'm so excited for the epic finale of this series, but at the same time I feel sad too because it's over :'(

But, eventhough this series is already over, I will NEVER forget this epic series and I will ALWAYS love Harry Potter forever! Maybe, I will show and read this series to my children in the future :)

Long Live Harry Potter

and....

ACCIO JULY 15!

To YOU

I don't know how to start it. This feeling is so complicated. I feel like I want to give up, but I don't want to. Sometimes I think, "What have you done to me 'till you made me like this?". You caused me so much pain, you've made me cry so many times, and you've made me a horrible person. But, why do I still love you? I don't even want to revenge, I don't even hate you. Well, honestly, I hate you sometimes but the love keeps coming back. Maybe, this hatred is being covered by love. My friends has said to me that I have to move on because you're not worth it, and I've tried, but I can't. I'm too much loving you.

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I remember when the first time you asked me to be your girlfriend. I remember when you successfully made me forget about my first love. I remember when the first time you hold me. I remember when the first time you kissed me. I remember when the first time I saw those sparks fly when you stared into my eyes. But, now those sparks are gone because of some stupid causes.

We've been broken up since 2 months ago. You already moved on and find the other one, and me? I 'm still hoping that someday you realize that I really love you for who you are and you'll be back to me. Yes, I still patiently waiting for you.

I don't care with what other people said about you. I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you.

R. F. 

190111

..and it's such a miracle that you and me are still good friends :)

iloveyou,

V

Soundtrack for today: Fallin' - Alicia Keys

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P. S.: Sorry, if this post is too emo ._______. and sorry for the bad english

My Favourite Girls (I wish I look like them :p)

These girls are amazing. They're talented, pretty, and smart. Sometimes, I wish they were me, hahaha.

1. Emma Watson

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2. Kaya Scodelario

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3. Chloe G. Moretz

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4. Selena Gomez

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5. Bonnie Wright

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But, I'm thankful enough for the face that Allah SWT. gave to me. 

Alhamdulillah Wasyukurillah, I still have a face, lol x)

Have you ever been alone in a crowded room?

 

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Hi, y'all. I'm back again and bring you a story.Ini cerita tentang situasi awkward yang gue alami kemarin, waktu latihan drama Bahasa Inggris di rumah temen gue. Hmm, sebenernya sih ini lebih kayak curcol daripada cerita, hehehe. Here it is..

Sabtu, tanggal 23 April kemarin, gue dan teman-teman sekelas yang lainnya dateng ke rumah Ade buat latihan drama Bahasa Inggris yang bakal ditampilin hari Selasa atau Kamis. Gue dateng bareng Ricky dan kita sempet nyasar dulu pas otw ke rumah Ade, (which is really embarassing-_-). Tapi untungnya kita ketemu Ade di jalan dan selamat sampai tujuan, hahaha. 

Sesampainya disana, gue langsung nyamperin temen-temen gue yang cewek dan sedikit celingak-celinguk nyari si EX. Ternyata, dia ada dan lagi ngobrol-ngobrol sama Ricky. Ricky cerita ke dia tentang gimana kita bisa nyasar dan tiba-tiba, si EX bilang, "Katanya tau!" ke gue. Gue butuh waktu beberapa detik untuk merespon ucapan dia. Bukan, bukan karena gue telmi (-_-), tapi karena gue speechless, gue juga ga tau kenapa bisa speechless, tiba-tiba aja ada rasa yang aneh pas dia ngomong ke gue (eaaaa). Akhirnya, gue hanya merespon dia dengan, "Lupa!", sambil senyum-senyum ga jelas. Setelah itu, dia lanjut ngobrol-ngobrol lagi sama Ricky. Dan gue? Gue bengong ngeliatin sendal sambil mikir "How do I show him that I miss him so much?". 

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Setelah semua anak-anak XI IPS 2 udah lengkap, kita langsung jalan kaki ke saung (atau apapun itu namanya) di sebelah rumah Ade. Sesampainya disana, kita langsung latihan drama. Ngga tau kenapa, di tempat itu gue ngerasa awkward banget, padahal ngga biasanya gue awkward kalo berada dalam satu tempat sama si EX. Mungkin karena udah lama ngga ketemu dan mungkin karena dia juga (ngga tau kenapa) udah jarang texting gue lagi kali ya? :\

Sepanjang latihan, gue selalu nyoba buat ngedeketin dia tapi ga bisa. Gue terlalu malu, bahkan cuman untuk say "Hi!" doang gue ga sanggup. Aneh, aneh banget, ngga biasanya gue begini, biasanya gue berani buat ngelakuin semua itu. Akhirnya, pada satu kesempatan (eaaaa), gue dan dia ngga sengaja saling bertatapan mata (kiwkiw-_-) walaupun cuman sebentar. Kemudian, keadaan menjadi semakin awkward bagi gue. Gue jadi bertanya-tanya apa dia juga ngerasain hal yang sama? Kok kita jadi aneh gini sih? Did he miss me too? Dan lain-lain.

Gue jadi ngerasa kayak sendirian di tempat itu. Gue cuman bisa bengong doang dan sesekali ngelirik ke arah si EX. Kadang, gue berharap dia bakal nyamperin gue, cheer me up dan keadaan bisa berubah jadi enak. Tapi, dia sama sekali ngga nyamperin gue. We're so close but still so far kalo katanya Jon McLaughlin, hehehe.

That's it. Cukup sampe segitu aja gue ceritanya. Semoga di hari Senin, keadaannya ngga awkward lagi, hehehe, ngga enak tauk-____-

x,

deedee

Soundtrack for today yesterday: The Story Of Us - Taylor Swift

Too much love in this video

This is the most adorable thing I've ever seen in my life. 

Ryan Gosling and Rachel McAdams winning the Best Kiss nomination on MTV Movie Awards 2005

Awwww..... it's too sweet and too adorable for words. But too bad, they've broken up :(

Wish I could get a sweet and romantic boyfriend like 

Ryan Gosling ♥

Holiday!

Hey guys, I'm back, hehehe. Sorry for the lack of post in here, I'm kinda busy fighting dragons and stuff, lol.

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Ok, hari ini sampai hari Jumat gue LIBUR! woohoo! Dalam rangka apa gue libur? Dalam rangka Ujian Nasional (UN) yang sedang dijalankan oleh anak-anak kelas 12 di seluruh Indonesia. Kenapa harus libur? Agar tidak mengganggu konsentrasi kakak-kakak kelas dalam mengerjakan soal-soal ujian, dan mungkin kelasnya dipake buat UN semua kali ya, hehehe.Oh iya, good luck ya buat anak kelas 12 di SMAN 11 Bekasi. Semoga bisa LULUS 100%, Amien.

Tapi, seperti liburan-liburan sebelumnya, liburan ini gua pake buat nyantai-nyantai di rumah aja. Hmm, tapi ngga nyantai-nyantai terus sih, soalnya gue juga harus ngerjain tugas makalah Pkn, latihan Drama Bahasa Indonesia, dan tugas-tugas lainnya. Agak ngebosenin sih ya, tapi it's ok lah, yang penting gue bisa istirahat dan ngga usah bangun pagi-pagi buat ke sekolah. Walaupun agak kangen juga sama sekolah, tepatnya sama temen-temen sekelas yang lucu-lucu, hehehe (padahal mah kangennya cuman sama si itu doang tuh :p).

Well, itu tadi kegiatan gue selama liburan. Bagaimana liburan kalian wahai para siswa/i kelas 10 dan 11 (apadeh bahasa gue -,-)? Semoga menyenangkan ya! Oh iya, kalau liburan kalian di rumah aja, kenapa ngga coba bikin party gila-gilaan di rumah pas ortu kalian lagi ngga ada dan undang teman-teman kalian? It's a good idea, bukan? Hehe, tapi kayaknya kurang cocok buat budaya timur ya (yang nulis kebanyakan nonton skins nih --"). Hehehe, ok, have a nice holiday y'all!

lovelovelove,

deedee   

Soundtrack for today: Cheers (Drink To That) by Rihanna

HELLO!

Hi! I'm back again on blogspot since my old blog (deedeesparadise.blogspot.com) has been deleted a long time ago for some reason, hahaha. So, I came back here because I miss blogging so much, and I think I need something to put and share my story on when I don't have someone to share with (pardon my bad english -,-). But, I swear I will not put the stories of my life too often here because it's not a diary and people would be boring and not coming to this site anymore :p (kaya ada yang baca aja -,-). By the way, I want to share with you about this blog :p

Why I named my new blog notsodramaqueen.blogspot.com?
Because, sometimes I feel like a drama queen with everything's going around me -,- but unlike the others drama queen, I don't like to make up stories and spread them to people just to get attention. NO.
So I named it, notsodramaqueen :)

Why I choose My life is a Tv series as my blog's title?
Because, I always imagine my life as a Tv series, with me as the main cast and God as the director, hehehe. It's not ordinary, but trust me, it will makes your life a little bit fun :)

So, yeah... maybe that's enough to explain my new blog. I hope everyone will love it as much as I do :) Bye!

much love,


deedee